We Sing

a time of rest
a time of escape
a time to repair the broken walls
we came together
for something greater

under the stars
we praised you
by the fire
we praised you
with the strum of the strings
we sang to you
for your glory
for your glory

the love we found
for each other
reflects the love
we have for you
the love you have been
showing us all along

under the stars
we praised you
by the fire
we praised you
with the strum of the strings
we sang to you
for your glory
for your glory

in the exhaustion
of praising you
we saw you in everything
you are alive
you are moving
we felt you around us
standing as one

under the stars
you made us whole
by the fire
you brought us together
with the strum of the strings
you made one voice

we praise you
we praise you

these hearts i love
till the day
we stand together again
as one
beyond the gates of heaven
and with the strum of the strings
we will forever praise the one
who brought us to together

for your glory
for your glory
we sing to you

there will always be a light

that my feet are trying to keep up with.

there is a light in front of me

i chase it

i seek it

i run to it

with everything inside of me.

the Lord is my light.

i try to step on his heels with

the tips of my toes.

the Lord is my light

all the days of my life.

Angel Tears

today is a rainy day. i love it. i love rainy days.
it gives me the fantastic excuse of not having
to walk out of my door. it gives me the chance to
cancel what was to happen, probably something
pragmatic or an errand or something.
it gives me a day to paint, like i am today, and still
feel productive and not make me feel like my head
was in the clouds once again! it's funny because
i feel like rainy days are the days when my head
is stuck in the clouds the most-on the yucky days
when the clouds are heavy with angel tears.
it's acceptable to have your head stuck in
a rain cloud i feel like. rainy days give me the
excuse to watch as many as i want and again,
feel as though i had a productive day.
i love rainy days. thank you God for rainy days.
angels need a good cry every once in a while too,
thanks for lookin out for them.

Heavy

you saw my tired eyes
my worn out expression
guilt written on me head to toe
you saw me in those heavy moments
and you reached down and grabbed my heart

i am changed
i am changed
my heart is whole
my soul is free
i am saved
i am saved

it only took time
before the hour glass
told time was up
and it was time to grab ahold
and when the last grain of sand hit the bottom
so did i
and you took hold of my heart

i am changed
i am changed
my heart is whole
my soul is free
i am saved
i am saved

and on that day
you turned my chair around
now i sit facing you and no one else
you took my face in your hands
you looked in my eyes
and i was changed

i am changed
i am changed
my heart is whole
my soul is free
i am saved
i am saved

Knees

when was the last time

i let him wipe away my tears

i can't remember

maybe that's why

i have a tear stained pillow

when was the last time

i fell to my knees

my hands together

my eyes to the stars

his words lay next to my bed

scripture is on my body

yet the words remain unread

and untouched

as each day passes

i blow by these words

like leaves in fall

so natural

so natural

when was the last time

i fell to my knees

my hands together

my eyes to the stars

this place is where

i hide it the most

i say it will come back

in just a few days

as if faith can come and go

how far can this ignorance

stretch my heart

till the stitches rip

and once again i am

left where i started

when was the last time

i fell to my knees

my hands together

my eyes to the stars

fall to my knees

fall to my knees

why is this so hard

why is this so hard

dear god

God has stripped me of the confidence i once had.

He has broken me into so many pieces,

now they lie scattered upon the floor.

but each day i pick up a new piece.

slowly my confidence is coming back,

my confidence in who He is and what

He will do in the days to come.

my trust is in Him.

for my flesh has deceived me too many times,

my heart cannot stand another trickery in some words.

my heart is with Him, my Father, because He

is the only shield that will protect it.

i pray that He only increases in me

and that i will only decrease.

i will never fully understand myself,

because i am always changing

with each fleeting day,

but He never changes and He will always know me.

He will love me the same for eternity.

i feel alone in this world,

but through faith, i feel fully surrounded,

because for once i feel your arms around me.

"He must increase, but I must decrease."

- John 3:30

Throw Away Heart

she is scared of what could happen

of how this could end

could this be a temporary love

the uncertainty is to big a risk

she wants to pour out her soul

but she doesn't know how

so she continues to build walls

she wants to love

but doesn't know how

even when it's standing in front of her

she tries not to wear her heart on her sleeve

but sometimes she can't help it

and when she does

she changes her shirt

to hide her heart once again

she wants to pour out her soul

but doesn't know how

so she continues to build walls

she wants to love

but doesn't know how

even when it's standing in front of her

they go in circles

again and again

and she changes her shirt

again and again

and every time he walks behind her

picking her shirts up

to see what they say

she wants to pour out her soul

but doesn't know how

so she continues to build walls

she wants to love

but doesn't know how

even when it's standing in front of her

but hope gives her belief that one day those

walls will be broken

feelings will be spilled

hearts will be opened

and minds will be cleared

and she will love

and she will love